Roll Tide

My love for Alabama Football is not very girl of me but that's ok!! This weekend I went to Fan Day at Bryant-Denny and my excitement for the first home game is beyond measurable.

 I also love NFL football and will begin fantasy football very soon. I will never forget the weekend in ATL. Jacob and I went to see the Bengals play the Falcons and that is the weekend that he proposed. It is probably one of the greatest weekends until I screwed up everything.

This was at the game. We were on the second to top row. We will get back to this place again and It will be better then the last. 

Great Weekend and more to come.

This past weekend was great! I can't even begin to explain. I had great times with great friends. The only thing is that things are a little distant. I feel the closer I am to being there with him the more he backs away. He is scared to commit to us again because, I think, he is scared that I am going somewhere. I am not going anywhere. As much as I don't want to be drug through the mud for a while, I am willing to wait ALMOST forever to have him back. He is what I want and that is not going to change. It is so easy to be happy with him and that feeling will not go away. We will get through the hard times again. I know what we can have if we try and that will never change and I will never stop trying.
We took some pictures this weekend so I am going to share. :) I love him!

This two pictures are so us! He is great!

Getting Better

Yesterday was much better then Monday and today I am one day closer to being in Tuscaloosa for good... 9 days!! I am beyond excited. I can't take these kids anymore. There are still things that I need to do around my apartment and I have a busy weekend with senior ceremony and training for my new desk job. Then after this weekend one more week!! I am beyond pumped to be back in the city of champions with all my friends. Jacob and I are much easier when we are together and it is easier to work on us. 

Can't wait to get back to this place!!

Hard Times

Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. Being away from Jacob is really hard because i get down and am not my normal positive person. Well yesterday I went 7 hours without talking to him and he said it was "no big deal." This hit me hard. Never did I think we could go that long without talking, besides sleeping at night of course. It just really hit home that things aren't back to the way they used to be with us being together. We aren't an item and that is apparent with his actions sometimes. It's very difficult. I am definitively going to be suffering for a while until i get my ring back. Not a day goes by that I don't think about it and how our life should be right now. I should not be worrying about the fact of how I need to act. I wish that things could go back without all this heartbreak but that's not the case. I miss how we used to be everyday and if I could take things back I would in a heartbeat. This is going to be a long process and I just don't know if I can handle that. Last time I didn't show him how much I loved him and truly wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. But I know without a shadow of a doubt that when he puts that ring back on my finger I will tell him how happy that I am and how I will never let him down. I want to spend the rest of my life with him and I want everyone to know that. I want everyone to see that what I did was a mistake and that I will not make that mistake again. I wish when he told me to keep the ring because "there might be a chance" I wish I had. I love him more than i ever have!!! I will never have feelings for anyone else! He is my prince charming and I will be the happiest person spending every day of the rest of my life with him!

I will get this back and be able to tell him how much I want to spend the rest of my life with him and be the happiest girl ever! One day.

Been too long.

I have been in Tuscaloosa for the past week moving in and situating my apartment and unfortunately i did not have internet so I have not been able to update in a little while! But my chalk board message board and earring holder turned out really well.

I had a great week of organizing and getting my apartment looking like i wanted to. I cant wait to be back in Tuscaloosa for good. Two more weeks of working then down there for good :)