Get me back to Tuscaloosa

It really aggravates me that here in HG I have like no one to hang with and pretty much do nothing and in Tuscaloosa I have so many people that I have to tell people no. I can't wait to get back there and get this semester going. This weekend as a whole was a pretty good one. Jacob and I had some pretty tough conversations but things are going to work out! I am very confident about that mean after all we have gone through i don't think that there will not be many more conversations to come. This weekend was a roller coaster of emotions but ended up being happy. We both love each other and that over all is what is going to make this work.

Commitment

5 months ago i wanted out of commitment and now all i want is commitment with this boy, but now he needs more time to deal with everything. What I did is definitely coming back to bite me, but we can get through this i know we can!! Seeing one of my friends hurting so much from a break up or going on a break or w/e makes me realize what I did to him and I understand how he can't just get over it, as much as i wish he could. So i will wait as long as i need to (in reasonable context) for him to realize that he loves me as much as i love him. We were happy at some point before and we can be again! 

We can get to this point again! I know it!!!

Children

So I am becoming a teacher and I graduate in December with my undergraduate degree in Elementary Education but I cant wait to have my own classroom with my own rules so they children will obey me. I can not stand a child that deliberately does or doesn't do what I tell them to. I babysit during the summer and I am thoroughly annoyed today.  I can say things till I am blue in the face and they still do them and they try and tell me what I am going to do. That's not happening. I am the person in charge here and I make the rules. I would love a dinner or drink with a friend. I am fed up.

My love of children has me on my toes today!

Father's Day

First of all Happy Father's day to my wonderful father and grandfather, but today seems to be a difficult one for our family because my mom's father is not with us anymore. He was a very special man and I love and miss him everyday. Any day that reminds me of him is difficult but I will get through it. I am starting to work on a scrapbook with a few pictures of me and him so I will be excited when that is done!! It also gives me something else to do, because i have been really bored lately with not alot to do. I am not good with being bored, I am normally really busy!

My amazing grandfather and a man i look up to so much! I just wish that my future husband would have met him! I know he would have loved him!

My title holds true

So four months of being without Jacob was interesting but I definitely learned that I need him and I am meant for him. I was with someone else for a couple of those months and things didn't click, I enjoyed the initial excitement but things did not progress they just got worse. Things are not like that with Jacob, we just click. No matter what we are doing, if it being laying outside to laying in bed to being on a date, I am happy and feel so in love with this man. I really screwed things up with us though and I am going to have to fight everyday to get things to a good place where we are together and a couple again and then try even harder to get the where we were with being engaged but it is all going to be worth it in the long run! Things are just to right with us for me not to try to make it work. I can not have what i have with him with anyone else just have to work at it and show him that I am not going anywhere. Today has been a hard day but like he says, "One day at a time." We will get there. I have faith.